Back to Life
I’m over Wolf, done with him. It was like a drug detox. I am not in love with him. I thought I was. I don’t know if it was the sex or his addictions and mental illness rubbing off on me. But I have my mind back and I don’t want him anymore. Yes, I’m sure this time.
I am gonna try to focus on other guys now. I had a good time with Darius, so I will try to keep in contact with him so I can get some when I want. By the way, did I tell you that Darius is not with that girl anymore? He’s totally single. So maybe I can get him once a week. That would be nice. If I could muster the excitement I used to have for him.
Dominic got back together with his woman. My interest level has waned to almost nothing with him. I think the feeling is mutual. My feeling for James is almost totally gone. He doesn’t answer my texts anymore.
Jason sent me a text that he wants to fuck outside. I told him we’d do the parking garage thing like I did with the cop. Its a secure place to have an adventure. But I wasn’t really in the mood.
Oh, by the way, Guess who emailed me a couple of days ago. Dennis. The math teacher with the hot kisses and jackhammer fucking. Who flaked after one night. Remember? That was so long ago. Well his excuse for disappearing was family business and being out of town. OK. Probably a lie, but I’ll let it go. I’ve been so busy lately dealing with the insanity of Wolf, I hadn’t had time to talk to him. But I’m gonna get on the ball with that. He has potential to be a great fuck buddy. And someone I won’t get feelings for, since he bores the hell out of Pussy with his nice boy attitude.
Then there’s Quincy, who claims to want to bed me ASAP, but never has the time to do the deed. Wish I could make myself care.
I’m just going through the motions trying to light the fire, but it is just embers. Don’t know what I need, maybe a new guy, maybe a break from men. What do you think?
